Melissa Ricks shared snapshots of her emotional moments at YouTube's "NextUp" creator camp, which she became a participant recently. "NextUp" is a five-day crash course where participants learn about video production with creators. Melissa is now a YouTuber, which paved the way for her to be chosen to enter the camp. On her Instagram page, the actress shared pictures when she broke down at the event, confessing that the past years have been challenging for her.

"The truth is the past couple of years have been tough for me. Then #YTNextUp came along. Prior to this I said no to every tv guesting or work offered to me or even events to attend, I turn them all down, because I just couldn't do it, but this I applied for haha (thanks @brattynellah) I wasn't expecting to be picked at all, but I was.. I was afraid to go, was thinking of reasons not to go and get out of it, I was getting anxiety before and during the 5 days I was there, but I pushed through with it. I thought to my self, God wanted me to be there and he chose me amongst so many who wanted to participate," she shared.

Melissa relayed that she became emotional because of the appreciation shown by her co-creators to her. "What my co-creators said to me made me cry because I felt appreciated. For so long I have been doubting myself, constantly putting myself down, making myself small but they saw me differently. They knew who I was, or what I did before all this, but that didn't matter, they saw me for who I am, they said I was an inspiration, someone that was strong and that I was real, I was helping a lot of single moms and parents, bringing light to every situation, along with my daughter in Vlogs that we did. I made other people happy in my own little way," she stated.

She added, "That really affected me because actually the truth is I have been battling for so long to keep strong, trying to keep everything together, and knowing that I could touch a lot of people meant alot to me, so I became an emotional wreck during the comments!! Hahaha. YES I'm a single mom, YES I gained a lot of weight, YES I'm not active in showbiz anymore, YES I have made mistakes and YES I'm still battling my demons but that doesn't define me. Not being okay is OK. Lets not let depression, anxiety, anger and hate get the best of us. Lets push through. God put us in each situation for a reason and I thank all these people who made me realize that and Made this journey fun."

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Uh-oh ito nanaman! The crying series. 😂🙈 the truth is the past couple of years have been tough for me. Then #YTNextUp came along. Prior to this I said no to every tv guesting or work offered to me or even events to attend, I turn them all down, because I just couldn't do it, but this I applied for haha (thanks @brattynellah) I wasn't expecting to be picked at all, but I was.. I was afraid to go, was thinking of reasons not to go and get out of it, I was getting anxiety before and during the 5 days I was there, but I pushed through with it. I thought to my self, God wanted me to be there and he chose me amongst so many who wanted to participate. These photos were taken the last day, when we showed everyone our Final videos for the camp. What my co-creators said to me made me cry.. because i felt appreciated. For so long I have been doubting myself, constantly putting myself down, making myself small But they saw me differently. They knew who I was, or what I did before all this, but that didn't matter, they saw me for who I am, they said I was an inspiration, someone that was strong and that I was real, I was helping alot of single moms and parents, bringing light to every situation, along with my daughter in Vlogs that we did. I made other people happy in my own little way. That really affected me because actually the truth is I have been battling for so long to keep strong, trying to keep everything together, and knowing that I could touch alot of people meant alot to me, so I became an emotional wreck during the comments!! Hahaha ✌️ YES I'm a single mom, YES i gained alot of weight, YES I'm not active in showbiz anymore, YES I have made mistakes and YES im still battling my demons but that doesn't define me. Not being okay is OK. Lets not let depression, anxiety, anger and hate get the best of us. Lets push through. God put us in each situation for a reason and I thank all these people who made me realize that and Made this journey fun!! Cheers to New friends. New memories. New Vlogs? Hahahaha Thank you guys❤️ 📷: @darcphotographe

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