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Kylie Padilla reveals struggle with depression: ‘Things were so confusing and so traumatic’

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<p>Actress Kylie Padilla opened up for the first time about having struggled with depression as she observed World Mental Health Day Saturday, saying that her experience with mental illness was brought about by &quot;a past that wasn’t handled so well&quot;.</p><p>In an Instagram post, the daughter of Robin Padilla said that she was still a teenager when &quot;people responsible for my well-being&quot; started to label her as &quot;depressed&quot;, among many other &quot;harmful&quot; things.</p><blockquote class="instagram-media" data-instgrm-captioned="" data-instgrm-permalink="https://www.instagram.com/p/B3fGo1yhAg4/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading" data-instgrm-version="12" style="background:#FFF;border:0;border-radius:3px;box-shadow:0 0 1px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.5),0 1px 10px 0 rgba(0,0,0,0.15);margin:1px;max-width:540px;min-width:326px;padding:0;width:calc(100% - 2px)"><div style="padding:16px"><div style="display:flex;flex-direction:row;align-items:center"><div 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solid transparent;border-left:6px solid #f4f4f4;border-bottom:2px solid transparent;transform:translateX(16px) translateY(-4px) rotate(30deg)"> </div></div><div style="margin-left:auto"><div style="width:0px;border-top:8px solid #F4F4F4;border-right:8px solid transparent;transform:translateY(16px)"> </div><div style="background-color:#F4F4F4;flex-grow:0;height:12px;width:16px;transform:translateY(-4px)"> </div><div style="width:0;height:0;border-top:8px solid #F4F4F4;border-left:8px solid transparent;transform:translateY(-4px) translateX(8px)"> </div></div></div><div style="margin:8px 0 0 0;padding:0 4px"><a href="https://www.instagram.com/p/B3fGo1yhAg4/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading" style="color:#000;font-family:Arial,sans-serif;font-size:14px;font-style:normal;font-weight:normal;line-height:17px;text-decoration:none;word-wrap:break-word" target="_blank">When I was a teenager, alot of the people responsible for my well being always labelled me as “depressed” among other things. During a time when things were so confusing and so traumatic these harmful words were being thrown around to try and silence and calm a very messy storm in our lives. And maybe it was just a quick and easy way of trying to pacify the situation, so that just became the resolution. You are just depressed. To the point where it felt like what I was feeling felt invalid and didn’t even matter enough to be heard or even discussed. I remember feeling so angry when I heard anyone even say the word. That word almost instantly dehumanised me. At that time I didn’t understand what that word even really meant, but since that was my label, I guess that’s what I was?... It was only later that I began to understand how dangerous it was for the situation to be handled that way. During that time I was feeling emotions I did not yet understand, I did not know how to process them or work through them. So naturally I just kept silencing them until they came out in my behaviour. It took some few years of denial, self pity, rebellion and breaking down of the ego for me to realise that I was in need of some healing from a past that wasn’t handled so well. And in a-lot of positive ways I’m proud of who I have become. But everyday takes work, patience and forgiveness. That is what I want to share with you, be patient with yourself. Understand that your emotions need to be heard, processed and understood. If not by someone you love and trust, then by you. It takes empathy to allow space for healing, love and trust. If you cannot find it others, you must fight and learn to give it to yourself, you then learn to give it to someone else. You can do it. 🌙 happy late #mentalhealthawareness day. We got this ✨</a></div><p style="color:#c9c8cd;font-family:Arial,sans-serif;font-size:14px;line-height:17px;margin-bottom:0;margin-top:8px;overflow:hidden;padding:8px 0 7px;text-align:center;text-overflow:ellipsis;white-space:nowrap">A post shared by <a href="https://www.instagram.com/kylienicolepadilla/?utm_source=ig_embed&amp;utm_campaign=loading" style="color:#c9c8cd;font-family:Arial,sans-serif;font-size:14px;font-style:normal;font-weight:normal;line-height:17px" target="_blank"> 🌙</a> (@kylienicolepadilla) on <time dateTime="2019-10-11T17:17:23+00:00" style="font-family:Arial,sans-serif;font-size:14px;line-height:17px">Oct 11, 2019 at 10:17am PDT</time></p></div></blockquote><script async="" src="~//www.instagram.com/embed.js" type="text/javascript"></script><p>&quot;During a time when things were so confusing and so traumatic these harmful words were being thrown around to try and silence and calm a very messy storm in our lives. And maybe it was just a quick and easy way of trying to pacify the situation, so that just became the resolution. You are just depressed. To the point where it felt like what I was feeling felt invalid and didn’t even matter enough to be heard or even discussed,&quot; she shared.</p><p>&quot;I remember feeling so angry when I heard anyone even say the word. That word almost instantly dehumanised me,&quot; she continued. &quot;At that time I didn’t understand what that word even really meant, but since that was my label, I guess that’s what I was?... It was only later that I began to understand how dangerous it was for the situation to be handled that way. During that time I was feeling emotions I did not yet understand, I did not know how to process them or work through them. So naturally I just kept silencing them until they came out in my behaviour.&quot;</p><p>Kylie said that it took her a few years of &quot;denial, self pity, rebellion and breaking down of the ego&quot; for her to realize that she needed help.</p><p>&quot;And in a-lot of positive ways I’m proud of who I have become. But everyday takes work, patience and forgiveness,&quot; she said.</p><p>Ending her post, Kylie advised her followers who might be dealing with a similar situation to &quot;be patient with yourself&quot; and &quot;understand that your emotions need to be heard, processed, and understood&quot;.</p><p>&quot;If not by someone you love and trust, then by you. It takes empathy to allow space for healing, love and trust. If you cannot find it others, you must fight and learn to give it to yourself, you then learn to give it to someone else. You can do it,&quot; she added.</p><p>A group in the Philippines is dedicated to addressing those who have suicidal tendencies. The crisis hotlines of the Natasha Goulbourn Foundation aim to make these individuals feel that someone is ready to listen to them.</p><p>These are their hotline numbers:</p><p>(02) 804-HOPE (4673)<br/>0917 558 HOPE (4673)<br/>2919 (toll-free number for all GLOBE and TM subscribers)</p><div> </div>

Actress Kylie Padilla opened up for the first time about having struggled with depression as she observed World Mental Health Day Saturday.