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Jennica Garcia on giving up dream of complete family

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Liezel dela Cruz

In the past four months, Jennica Garcia has been turning heads with her acting talent on full display in <a href="https://ent.abs-cbn.com/dirtylinen" target="_blank">Dirty Linen</a>. She is Lala, the fierce avenger, one whose heart is soused in hate and bitterness.She, clearly, has given her best in playing the role. However, intense character immersion put her in an overwhelming ‘emotional’ hangover. “’Pag nala-lock in kami sa taping, ‘pag umuuwi ako, meron na po akong moment na nagtatangggal ako ng makeup tapos kinakausap ko na ‘yung sarili ko sa salamin na, ‘Tama na. Tapos na.’ Pero umiiyak pa rin,” she revealed during her guesting on Bernadette Sembrano’s vlog.Some parts of the interview highlighted Jennica’s life as a single mother. Back in 2014, then-24-year-old Jennica tied the knot with Alwyn Uytingco. They kept their marriage a secret since Alwyn just got his first titular role, “Feeling ko makakasama, baka makasama ako sa career niya. Sabi ko, ‘Sige tago na lang natin.’”<div><iframe allow="accelerometer; autoplay; clipboard-write; encrypted-media; gyroscope; picture-in-picture; web-share" allowfullscreen="" frameBorder="0" height="720" src="https://www.youtube.com/embed/bYUJoh6avow" title="JENNICA GARCIA, NAHIRAPAN PAKAWALAN SI LALA! | Bernadette Sembrano" width="1280"></iframe></div>“Pero nu’ng nagpakasal po ako secretly nu&#x27;ng 2014, patapos na rin po ‘yung contract ko nu’n. Ang pangarap ko po kasi talaga maging asawa at saka maging nanay po. Nag-usap kami that time, pareho rin naman kami ng gusto na I’ll be a housewife and that he will provide for our family. So excited na excited ako. Masayang masaya ako,” shared Jennica.In October 2014, she got pregnant. She enjoyed the first years of motherhood while having small businesses at home and conducting parenting talks. However, after her second pregnancy, things changed after she suffered from post-partum depression. “Tinigil ko ‘yung talks ng Kalinga ni Nanay because I had post-partum depression with my second child and I didn’t feel eligible or a good enough mother to hold talks. I was so confident with how I parent my child. Then, nawalan ako ng confidence kasi nu’ng dumating ‘yung second baby ko, hindi ko na nagagawa ‘yung mga routine na nagagawa namin noon… Kumbaga ‘yung mga tinuturo ko, hindi ko na siya ina-apply,” she admitted.Jennica suffered from “second child guilt” or feeling as if she was losing her precious time with her eldest, “Busy ako with my second child tapos parang pinaparusahan ko ‘yung sarili ko sa gabi. Tapos kapag repetitive po kasi, nafe-feel bad ako sa sarili ko.” She struggled with the symptoms for three years but only sought professional help and confirmed her condition after she separated from her husband. She learned through that experience that moms need support systems.<div style="text-align:center"><img alt="Jennica Garcia daughters" src="https://aa1a-dctp-s3-entertainment.s3.ap-southeast-1.amazonaws.com/updates/dirtylinen/2023/05/14/Jennica-daughters-1.jpg"/></div>From there, she went on to talk about her dream of a family. Though she grew up with her mom after her parents’ separation, she remained close to her father and his big clan, who inspired her to also have a big family of her own. “Sabi ko talaga sa sarili ko, ‘Magkakaroon ako ng ganito. Magkakaroon ako ng family at mag-aanak ako ng madami.’”This dream happened but only to get broken in the end. “Sa una, sobrang masakit po talaga. Isipin mo, nakuha mo ‘yung pangarap mo pero pinatikim lang sa’yo, hindi mo naman nalunok.” This worsened her depressive state, leading to body trauma, “’Pag kailangan ko po umiyak sa eksena, biglang nanginginig nang uncontrollable. Kakasabi ko sa sarili ko na strong ako, nagugulat po ako na ‘pag iniisip ko kung ano ‘yung dumurog sa akin, hindi na po ako maiyak.”According to Jennica, she and Alwyn tried to fix things after their first separation. “Umalis ‘yung husband ko, tapos bumalik ‘yung husband ko. Tapos tinry pa po namin ng one year. Tapos nag-desisyon po ako na hindi na po pala talaga kaya. Nagulat rin po ako sa sarili ko gawa ng naghahabol po kasi ako. Kaya nagulat rin po ako na ako po pala ‘yung aayaw.” In that moment during the interview, the Kapamilya actress was reduced to tears. “’Pag nagpe-pray po ako kay Lord, sinasabi ko po na sana ‘pag nagkita kami sa langit, huwag Niya po i-take against me gawa nang sinubukan ko naman po talaga. Kasi, siyempre, ‘yun naman po talaga ‘yung gusto ko po. Kaya lang napapansin ko po na natutulog po ako na bigla akong gigising, parang wala na po akong peace of mind. So sabi ko, ‘Hindi pwede, mawawala sa akin pareho.’” She continued, “True enough po, nu’ng naghiwalay po kaming mag-asawa, nakakatulog na po ako nang mahimbing. Bumabalik na po ako sa dati. Masaya na po ako ulit.”Jennica admitted that she’s open to dating again, but not anytime soon. “Parang iniisip ko pa lang ‘yung idea na meron akong makakausap ‘pag pagod ako, sobrang napapangiti na ako agad. Though, hindi kasi ako nagmamadali. So minsan kahit meron akong gusto or if I am attracted to someone, hindi rin ako mauuna kasi natatakot ako, eh. Natatakot ako mapunta sa relasyon na mas mahal ko na naman.”At the moment, she’s enjoying her time with her two daughters in their condo unit where they sleep together on one bed and can do everything together.“Okay na ‘to. Dito na lang kami sa maliit, ‘yung wala kaming choice kundi magkakakitaan kami. Hintayin ko na lang po dumating ‘yung time na sabihin ni Ate Mori, ‘I wish I have a bed of my own, a room of my own.’ Saka na lang. Sa ngayon, enjoy-in ko na lang muna,” she smiled.

Some parts of the Jennica Garcia’s interview with Bernadette Sembrano highlighted herlife as a single mother.